Theme from Legend of Dragoon

I had a dream that I could fly
I can feel each moment as time goes by

We’d never be too far away
You would always be here
I heard you say

I never thought
Thought that it would be our last good bye
I still can dream
that one day love will fall from the sky

Do you still remember
All the time that has gone by
Do you still believe that
Love can fall out from the sky
(if you still believe…in love, in me…do you believe)

If from where you’re standing
You can see the sky above
I’ll be waiting for you
If you still believe in love

Find a way
To bring back yesterday
Find a way for love

I hope you’ll stay here
When tomorrow comes today
Love will find a way

I’ll be waiting for you
In my heart you are the one
If I cannot find you
I will look up to the sun
(if you still believe…in love, in me…do you believe)

If from where you’re standing
You can see the sky above
I’ll be waiting for you
If you still believe in love
La la la la (4 times)

I’m disgusted right now. Absolutely disgusted.

A good friend of mine by the name of Carrie is a Marine and she’s also been fighting cancer. Today, she was on her way home with her young daughter from one of her treatments when two people approached her and wanted to know why she was a Marine.

Why she was a murderer, war monger, and baby-killer.

Calmly, she tried to explain what she and her fellow Marines do. They wouldn’t listen.

For people supposedly “Anti-War / Violence” - what they did next was inexcusable. The man shoved her up against a wall and spit on her. His wife, girlfriend - whatever slapped her and spit on her as well.

What did Carrie do? Nothing but look at them sadly as they laughed at what they did and hurled hateful slurs at her.

Her poor little girl was forced to watch these freaks assault her Mommy in her uniform. She’s a very smart, very precocious little girl and wanted to know why someone would do this to her Mommy. Didn’t they know Mommy and the other Marines help protect people every day? Carrie didn’t know what to tell her. (Since then she’s found a song that might help.)

Another friend just returned from the Middle East himself. He said it’s a no-win situation. They go over and risk their lives for people that hate them. They come home and find the same hatred waiting for them. It still puzzles him, but he’s getting so he just shrugs it off.

What a wonderful country we live in. And I mean that sarcastically.

There. I did something with Legacies. I’m sorry guys, but I don’t really have time to play right now. :-( If you guys want to reassign groups or just try a different idea than the one I came up with, go ahead. If you want me to choose someone and give them Admin powers over the board, I’ll do so. *hugs* Sorry. Still not sure what you guys want me to do with Nic Jean’s character though :-(

Work has just been a bitch with my time lately. I haven’t had much of a day off in recent times… I mean, heck… normally I get to see Yugioh on Saturday mornings, but all I got to see was the 8am showing. I know that Malik shows up, well… Cameo type thingy as he does the puppit-thang with Bandit Keith, but I missed the next episode. Fantasy, you may have me at Kaaza yet! I’m spending most of my time trying to get rested so I can survive the next day at work, so my internet time has shrunk down to checking my mail. At least my paychecks are semi-decent…. I did get to go shopping and repair a little of my wardrobe last week. Got several tops, a load of underwear, and a couple low-rise, boot cut jeans. (Pretty decent, not those horrifically exaggerated things I’d been finding. Boot cut isn’t Bell-Bottoms, despite what some designers seem to be thinking) ^_^ Now just to get that Debit Card so I can do a little shopping online. Want to make it to Grand Rapids soon… one of my favorite Craft Shops is having a massive sale and I/we want to splurge a little. That and I want a few more clothes… it feels good to start getting clothes that actually fit me. Now to stop drooling at those black, leather pants I found at this one store. ^^;;

Listing to “Plane of Time” and “Plane of Earth” themes from the new EQ expansion… I really love those. ^_^ The latter has this really cool Egyptian-sounding thing going, which drives me right back to my Yugioh fetish. I really want to play-play, but everytime I intend on coming on I’m too tired to even want to to much with the computer, let alone seriously play. Ah well *hugs everyone*

Why is it everyone calls me “wise” but yet I feel like such a simpleton?

Ramble….. Wow, I feel incredibly behind in most everything and emotionally dead all at once. I’ve read everyone’s blogs and have no idea how to respond to any of you. I do alot of backspacing and stuff, but never quite come up with a response. I was like this too on the Customer Service Server today, slow day and got talking with some co-volunteers and just kind of did a lot of backspacing and hand flopping into my lap on quite a few subjects. I really need to get back to work on Legacies; I think I really did choose a bad time to create and run the game. I don’t have time for it to be brutally honest. I think once I finish up these CRSs, I’m going to have to say “No New Members” until I can feel caught up and in control of my life again.

Y’know… it’s funny. When I started really listening to the radio when I was twelve, I ended up at a radio station that played current rock. They were bought out eventually and made into this weird Jazz station and I ended up on a Pop Station I listened to until I graduated from HS. Moved to college, found another pop station. I stopped listening to it when I moved… move down and in the six months since I stopped listening, I can’t stand them anymore. I had a hard time finding something to listen to and then I found it. The same station I loved when I was twelve has gone back to straight rock. I must say, Linkin Park, POD, and all those really have started growing on me. (And unlike the Popular Stations down here they actually TELL you what you’re listening to and stick to the order they tell you if they go on a 20-song-no-interruptions program, so I’m not like “I really love that song, but no clue who it’s by. Oh well.”) Would you believe they’re the ONLY station down here that I’ve found that plays some of my favorite bands? lol

I am no closer to gettting my domain up. The places I REALLY want to go through only accept credit cards and I’ll be damned if I can get one of those. They ALL say I don’t have enough credit history, even for the Student ones - which I thought were for first-timers. So, I’m going to be waiting on getting them and just holding the course I’m on - get the bills taken care of and catch up a little on that massive “I want” list I’ve been nursing forever. Then, once I’m sure I’m going to keep this job, I’m going to take out a loan and get myself a new computer. I’m getting VERY sick of the blue-screen-of-death ™ and am going to get something nice and custom and not something cheap and generalized. I have so much superfluous programs that don’t appear to do much more than make me crash. I have two Support programs… one that will take you to this weird chat/MB setup and another that is supposed to check for driver updates and crap while you’re online. Neither work and both crash me. :-P I have sample programs that came with my computer, I don’t use them and can’t uninstall them. So hopefully by doing the loan thing I can get my credit rating up AND get something nice.

I’ve been writing Yu-Gi-Oh fanfiction in my time off. Jasson and I have gone back to our roots and writing it in our “shard” style that Jinx and I worked in. By the time we’ve tossed the chapter back and forth you can’t tell who wrote what anymore. I have the main “shard” for chapter two, and I don’t give a bloody hell if it seems Mary-Sueish - anyone who goes after me for it can kiss my ass - I’m introducing an original character. I suppose the first chapter is pretty boring, since I start it at an classy-type auction. Hopefully Chapter 2 will net me some feedback on it, since I have some more action in it.

Gotta find a new design. I still love my Rikku design, but I need something new. I dunno, maybe I’ll do a Yu-Gi-Oh layout, since that’s my current obsession. Or maybe I’ll do something else. I nearly shit a brick when I went into my favorite store and discovered they’d increased their anime selection, but only the DVDs. They have all the RW DVDs and the YGO DVDs come out in September. Bills or burn a paycheck or two on DVDs? That is the question. …. Ramble

Customer Service sucks… Good lord. *sighs* Y’know… I used to be adamant again year round school, but now? Bring it on! I can’t stand dealing with these fucking morons and their little babies